I Can't Believe I Am Doing This!

I don't recommend this humiliation, but I think that this is what I need to "get over the hump" so to speak. I am not a heifer by any means, but I am a lot larger than I would like to be. I quit smoking, I am eating well (as if I have a choice as a vegetarian). My goal is to be 135-140 lbs and a size 6 or 8. I know I can do it!! I joined the gym here in Temple, and am going to Yoga on Mon and Wed nights. I am going to try and go to the gym and work out on my own the other 3 days and take weekends off. This doesn't include the 2 miles a day that I am going to do with Sebastian - more to wear him out than work me out, but every lil bit helps. Oh yeah and I am not going to be smiling in ANY of these pictures. I always love those weight loss shows where they show the before and after and the before is like MISERABLE and the after is like VA VA VOOM.

Oh my God SERIOUSLY!!! Do you see that gut? How bout those hips? NOT ATTRACTIVE! The arms could use some work too. Back fat? Its not bad, but come on. And what is up with the white stretch of the pants? I wasn't wearing white underwear. Ha ha.

Okay BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY! Normally I like my butt. I mean its still cute, but DANG ITS BIG! Ha ha. And again we get to see the gut. My thighs are a lil on the heavy side, and is that saggage that I see in my breasts? I am only 26!! And no kids!!! OMG the dropping chin line. GEEZ!!

This is Seb sitting at the end of the treadmill watching me walk. He actually got on with me, and ate it! I was laughing so hard that I almost had to get off the treadmill, but I didn't!!!

I am hoping that this humiliation will inspire me to stick with it and get back to where I used to be. I should get my Mom to send me this pic of when I was HOT! It was from our cruise when I was 19. Seriously, I was like...."I thought I was fat back then. Boy was I wrong."

Good luck to all others that are in this struggle with me. Oh yeah...and below is what I want to look like again. Ignore the ex, but look at that teeny tiny waist!