New Years Resolution...sortof

I am not real big on New Years Resolutions because quite honestly I won't follow through on them..

So instead of a resolution this year, I have a plan. A plan to find myself. A plan to be happy.

I want to be happy. Not the fake it and pretend like everything is okay happy, but the real happy. The kind of happy that you can feel all the way down to your toes. The kind of happy that makes me wake up every day looking forward to what new treasures are in store for me. These treasures could be anything... a new friend, finding love, finding comfort, finding peace.
I want to let go of the things that have brought me unhappiness and embrace the ones that have brought me happiness. I want to finally walk away from dead end relationships, dead end friendships, and dead end jobs.

I want to start the life that I have wanted to live for so long. That of a confident woman with a successful career who travels where she wants to go. I want to travel to the places that I have always wanted to see. I want to pick up a map, point and then go there just because I can.
No more excuses for why I can't do the things that I want. No more excuses for why I can't live where I want, travel where I want, buy what I want (within reason). No more excuses on why I can't be the person that I want to be.

This year is going to be different. This year I am going to finally find me. I am going to learn to say NO. I am going to learn to ask for what I want, and turn down the things that I don't want. I am going to reach my potential. Scratch that, I am gonna go so far beyond my potential that people don't even recognize me anymore. Mmmmm….beautiful change. Much needed change. No more sadness, no more crying. Only smiles and laughter in my future.

Wish me luck in this new venture.

P.S. For those of you who require a list of resolutions....here goes:

1. Lose 20 lbs
2. Workout at least 3 times a week
3. Make all A's in school
4. Eat healthy
5. Save money